My grandfather, divorced from my grandmother but stayed together with her for almost twenty some odd years. When my grandmother surprised us of her marriage with a strange man my grand father surprised us yet again by saying he was moving in with and marrying his high school sweet heart. So we couldn't get away from the crazy. My grandmother, only one word describes her, CRAZY. She divorced my grandpa then dated some guys and the had a surprise wedding to the latest guy she met. Well he turned crazy and died so she was left alone again came to stay with me and my family; over dosed on about 30 different medications went to the hospital got "better" and we moved her back to her home state. During her "recovery" time she insulted me so many times and she has no idea what she did to me mentally and emotionally. Calling me Jessica and just dying right in front of me but continuing to live I couldn't take it. I wished (and still do) that she died cause I can't take her misery of staying alive. Now my grandpa and his new wife or my step grandma are staying with us for a visit and I'm about to go postal, thank god for my friends and books because I would be running away or planning my suicide if I was alone in the battle of being around my grandparents.
It shouldn't be like that I know but I can't deal with the crazy and messed up life all three of my grandparents live. I can't understand their past and I don't even want to be around in their freaky future. I want to be alone and I want the quite of my music to soothe my soul. Maybe while their out gambling I can just lay here on the floor where I'm typing this and relax with good music on a reasonable level to soothe me out. Wish me luck on the relaxing and pray for some sleep tonight.
Song of the moment to describe me: Hold It In by: Jukebox The Ghost :)
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